With a little help from my friends...

Well, ok, lenghty e-mail conversation with Angela (thank you Angela, you're one of the angels in disguise, I think!) have made me at least get my ballet shoes on, and since they're made for standing on the toes, I'm a little more secure again. Not that afraid of falling, because I've realized that even though it will hurt, I will not be falling down a cliff :)

I have only 9 working days left on this job, and then I get to go to the unemployment office and say that I have nothing to do... It will probably end up with me having a bit longer summer holiday than normal, because I count on starting my studies in the end of August - and I can't imagine the unemployment office telling me to get a job for three weeks, because it usually takes a lot longer to even FIND a job here. Even more so now when there will be so many "redundant" people coming from Volvo Cars in Gothenburg (they have said about 2000 people will be redundant - 1200 employed, the last 800 are consultants)...

I'm lonely at work without my beloved colleagues, and not that much less lonely at home (we don't speak much at the moment, will have to try to work on that) so I've once again started eating to comfort myself. My body apparently runs best on chocolates... I don't worry too much about that, as I said I only have two weeks left until my "holidays" begin, and we don't keep much candy and sweets at home. Besides, I'll be with our daughter, so I will keep my hands occupied with her.

I get freaked out at times, thinking about life as a grown up student with family, and then as a nurse, but it's very much like the feelings I had when I was pregnant with Hannah - and that worked out OK, I don't think I've been the world's worst mum yet...